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Posted by Exavius on August 18, 2008

“In his last decade Thoreau repeatedly invoked chaos and contingency, the generational source, the saving “wild”, which alone could redeem an encrusted, static, and alienated civilization. The terms of his late writings suggest something incongruously akin to “postmodernism,” an association which turns inside out modernism’s own association with organicist wholes, attended by a literary historical periodization which has locked in the very structures Thoreau strove to keep fluid and interactive. The resulting popular image envisions Thoreau as a premodern isolate who turned his back on society to rhapsodize about a pure, untainted, Edenic American nature. This iconic figure reasserts the tragic and sterile dualisms between subject and object, freedom and fate, spirit and matter, the human and the natural, which Thoreau himself inherited from Emerson and Coleridge, which he lived and experienced fully, and which he fought to disrupt and disown in the name of creating a future that might succeed the “evil days” ushered in by romantic alienation in a commodified society. ”

- Seeing New Worlds. Henry David Thoreau and Ninetheenth-Century Natural Science. By Laura Dassow Walls.

There was a book I picked up at the ranger station on Sunday. Flipped through it and read pieces here and there for 10 minutes or so. Put it down and went over to see if there were any new maps or whatever, then I went back over to the book and read it some more. Put it down, then picked it back up again. Looked at the back cover and it was $20. It was really full of a lot of useful material. It was more than the natural history of the Sierra. It was an excellent guide on the macro and regional development of the Sierra. I walked away from the book.

There was a black bear outside the front door with a ranger so I had to go see what that was about.

Regret not getting that book. It reminded me about Bill Guyton’s book on Sierra Glaciers. I read through that and emailed him about what I thought about it. I was just thrilled and inspired when he emailed me back about that.

Posted by Exavius on August 17, 2008

“If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you refuse to forgive others, your Father will not forgive your sins.”
– Matt 6:14-15


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Today was a day in the mountains. Four miles of exploring in Kings Canyon along a segment of the North Boundary trail. Took the sketchy route up to Panoramic Point. Had to use the GPS to find the wilderness entry point along HWY 180.

It was a beautiful day where the trees and leaves swayed in peace with an easy and cool breeze. There was the warmth of the sun and the gentleness of the day. This was a day where everything went well and without a struggle. Everything just came into place. I knew exactly where I was at all times, how to get where I was going and my bearing was strong.

At my destination, the absolutely incredible and enormous Muro Blanco stood in full view there as it had for centuries before. Sometimes I just don’t know how to think about such a marvel. It’s there and when you see it, it’s not easy to know what to think or say. It just makes you feel great to be there and alive.

Off on a descent below Panoramic Point and along a ridge I made the day of it there snacking on lunch and taking photos of the area.



Plumb. Sink n’ Swim

Posted by Exavius on July 30, 2008

“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.”
Matt 7:13-14




Tantric. Breakdown.

Breakdown

In your life you seem to have it all
You seem to have control
But deep within your soul
You’re losing it
You never took the time
Assume that you’re to blame
You think that you’re insane
Won’t you spare me

I know the breakdown
Everything is gonna shake now someday
I know the breakdown
Tell me again am i awake now maybe
You can find the reason that no one else is living this way

Yeah your lies
Your world is built around
Two faces of a clown
The voices in your head
Think there’s four pawns down
Well in this unity
Fate has found the need
So you better check yourself
Before you check out

If you find yourself
Then you might believe
Then within yourself
You just might conceive

You can find the reason that (you can find the reason that)
No one else is living this way (you can find the reason that way)

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“A stupid man’s report of what a clever man says is never accurate because he unconsciously translates what he hears into something he can understand.”
— Bertrand Russell



Plumb. Sobering.

Sobering

Take the cup of delusion
This empty hole inside
Drinks the wine of remorse
And giving cause to stumble
It’s sobering, the changes

Don’t turn around
Don’t walk away
Don’t try to lead
When you don’t know

Blotting out the stains of nonsense
And drenched in this desire
Spilling from an empty cup
You bury guilt like sin
Hurling smiles and judgments
The blatant tone of your soul
Creates a blackness deep within

Bitterness trickles through
This vein of tenderness

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Posted by Exavius on July 29, 2008

In a number of situations I’m finding it more often said that “I have no reason to mistrust unless someone gives me a reason to. ” It seems by default the opposite is the preference. I’ll only trust you if you give me a reason to, or if you prove yourself trustworthy first.

I suppose it all depends upon the social context by which you’re in.



Lacuna Coil. Heaven’s A Lie.

Heaven’s A Lie

Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
when I will fall into decay

Something wrong
with every plan of my life
I didn’t really notice that you’ve been here

Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie

Set me free
your heaven’s a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
why did I choose to betray you

Something wrong
with all the plans of my life
I didn’t realize that you’ve been here

Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie

Set me free
your heaven’s a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

Set me free your heaven’s a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

Dolefully desired

Set me free
your heaven’s a lie
set me free with your love
set me free



12 Stones. Lie to Me.

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Posted by Exavius on July 27, 2008

Well, today I went for an outing along the South Boundary Trail in Kings Canyon. The wilderness was pleasant this day even though the going was a stretch from time to time. Went without a map, without a plan and just emersed myself as far and as deep as my strength would handle. I learned alot about how much I don’t know about dead reckoning. Once had to stop to get the compass out to figure out where in the world I was. It felt good to get a bearing on a North heading to approximate which way to go.

Out there on my own. Well, just with the wildlife, reptiles, rodents, and the insects here and there. I was brought back to a sense of reality that is too often forgotten and unappreciated. I’ll get going on the journal entry here and I think I’ll call it ‘Isle of Reality’.

Peace–

Here are a few photos…



Posted by Exavius on June 4, 2008

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Posted by Exavius on June 1, 2008

Making alot of head way with the clean up of this site. Alot of restoration of old and broken links. Bringing back older content and introducing more in a better and protected way.

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Posted by Exavius on May 29, 2008




Michael Card. Scribbling in the Sand.

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Posted by Exavius on May 28, 2008

10 Years - Wasteland

Day by day there are several web cams I monitor to check conditions in the high country. And here are just a couple:



Mineral King. Timber Gap area. This auto-updates frequently throughout the day.




Mt Harrington from Hume Lake Christian Camp. This auto-updates frequently throughout the day.

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Posted by Exavius on May 22, 2008

Sometimes what God allows just doesn’t make sense. I really hope you find peace and comfort. What you’re faced with is unimaginable. Myanmar cyclone. China earthquake. Maria Chapman. 05/08. Utterly impossible situations.

Hang on. It’s going to get rough, but just hang on. Whatever you do, keep your faith and look for the healing to come. You’ve been brought before your Jordan.



Steven Curtis Chapman. When Love Takes You In.

Posted by Exavius on May 21, 2008


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Posted by Exavius on May 19, 2008



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Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your toil is not in vain in the Lord.

1 Cor 15:58

This website is a wasteland.

There were numerous journal outings unmapped and not connected to menuing, listings or dropdowns for any semblance of navigation. There were numerous journal entires just floating out there in space with no real way to get to them. Spent hours today fixing that.

What’s more, I counted nine (9!) sets of photo archives from nine other wilderness outings that don’t even have journal entries here.

This website is a mess. There’s a whole calendar of outings ahead and it’s gonna be necessary to get it together.

Bear with me as everything is brought back to proper order. So much content behind this site that you just can’t get to yet. And what’s frustrating is, it’s going to take some while.

Until that’s done, go do your part and make the world a better place. Be not what Ishmael erroneously claims, but carry your hope afar. Be inspired, be steadfast and set your lamps to glow strong.

Posted by Exavius on May 18, 2008

Speaking to the deepest needs of the human heart.